situation at the Central Methodist Church

The situation at Central Methodist Church is very troubling. I doubt the Bishop knew exactly what he was doing and now things way out of control…And he expects the goverment to do something about this…They are not going to…not anytime soon atleast.

This makes me sad and angry. Here’s a man who was trying to do good and now it is all going wrong in every possible way.And I read somewhere about him resigning….Oh no, he better not…He started this, it is only fair that he sees this through….This is his brain wave

On a side note…
My uncle passed away and buried about two weeks ago. Now my uncle was a staunch methodist and was a “Dodana” at some point. At the time of his death he was attending a church somewhere in town, under his jurisdiction. His home was in soweto….and this is where he was to be buried. He sends a girl, english speaking priest to a xhosa community, who has no clue on how things are down, so in her quest to be acknowledged she comes out disrespectful to the culture and community. I was very angry at teh church not only did they send someone who is incompetent, incoherent she was cluesless about the community she was to serve in that day.

She was African possibly
from one of the northern neighbouring countries.I am not trying to be discriminative or anything, but if our neighbours from other countries are to serve in our communities they must familiarise themselves with our cultures, especially when it comes to burying our dead….

September 1

Funny how I now remember the day of her passing, when I struggled to remember the day she was born…
It’s true when they say you will never realise the true worth of a person until the day they are taken away from you…

So today, makes it a year, I miss you, I wish even more that we spent time together, that I visited like I promised every year that I would. See, I was’nt expecting you to be taken away so soo, I guess one never really knows the time hey…

I meant to wear pink today to celebrate colour, because I know just how much you loved colour, but a ka hlatswa so my pink jersey and t-shirts are dirty, but I’ve got on a bright yellow jersey and a bright smile to remember you by…It is still sad to think about you, but am sure you are in a far happier place – “where trouble turn to lemon drops”…

So here’s a flower for you – and a lovely smile on my face – just to say I think about you, I miss you….

The love of reading

I love reading, always did. I remember my mom’s friend telling me that I was “such a book worm…” warra warra.Don’t know if this love for books and reading influenced my choice of career in any way though. Have been in publishing almost all my entire working life from education to finance to entertainment publc, and even had a stint in layout and just when an opportunity to write popped up, I changed jobs!

This isn’t about my love of reading but of how saddened I am about the closure of “Exclusive books” in Maponya mall. It feels like something has been taken away from me. They state their reason for closing this branch as “no longer possible for us to continue trading from the existing store” due to current economic downturn. This makes sense for a “book shop” operating in soweto to close shop, that being said, it was still the only book shop in soweto and in the neighbouring arears, there’s no bookshop in the many malls built in soweto not even in southgate, not so sure about trade route mall. What is this saying about the people who stay in this areas? Could it be that we dont read, that these kind businesses dont see it fit to continue trading in our areas.

I am fortunate to have worked and still working in the publishing sector, meaning I get my books cheaper and soemtimes for free, so books are always thrown at me. But what about the average joe in the street? What is he reading? Daily sun perhaps? If so, why then are his reading interests not catered for? Where are the soweto bred authors, why are they not writing for their people, saving this book stores.

I have recently found a second hand book store where I now buy my books – ( when the economy takes a down turn, as an avid reader you dont stop reading but find alternative means to get books) second hand book stores? I dont believe that black people dont want to read – it’s just that there’s whole lot of other things that are more important.i.e children’s school fees, food, transport etc.

I think that South african authors and publishers are failing us in this regard. We want to read, make it easy for us amke it affordable. If I can find second hand books store in Craighall/rosebank/emmarentia…Then there should be one in Soweto…

Am cut, am hurt, am bleeding….

I will live, there is a God right? I mean if sees, he knows, he hears, so surely He will do something right? What’s the worst thing that can happen? It wont come to that right?

Stop the world, this can’t be right? Things like this dont happen to people I know, How do I deal with this, how does she deal with this, how will they deal with this. It’s not about me, but about her, and what she is going through. So I can’t moan about me, about what I am feeling. So, I say a prayer, and hope…hope very hard that this is just a dream.Is it? My issues above are abitrary compared to what is going on in her life right? Hope for my situation me sorted – can we have the same for her please!

red and lacy

there’s nothing more exciting than buying expensive underwear at a marked down price….

I now own something red, pink and lacy…and the cup size has increased, to a 32 D!!!! How lovely…

Summer please cometh soonest!!!

my birthday again!

Today is my birthday…..and I got this beautiful message from the bible about God’s love…

He has truly been faithful in the past 25 yrs, and he continues to be soo

May your roots roots go deep down into the soil of God’s marvelous love. May you have the power to understand how wide, how long and how high and how deep his love really is…. it was somewhere in ephesians…..

blast from the past

Been too tired to write anything, I’ve been too tired nje!

Instead of writing something arb’ let me just end it here, and will write up a more meaningfull post sometime later, when I am more inspired or when I’ve lined up my thoughts and feelings about my life, the economy, heck even the soccer…

On the flip side, I saw “him” on the road the other day, he has changed cars, had to shut my sister’s mouth to keep her from screeming out the window, asking for my leather jacket…I mean really now, it has been what? three years already, and I have even bought myself another jacket…

What scares me the most is that, I still have that sick feeling in the stomach when I see him. Is he the one that I will always love, but never will have?? Don’t get me wrong I love ES to bits, I see forever in his eyes..and all that jazz that comes in a love song…But Geez, the feelings I had were intsense marn!

I know I promised myself never to go back there, but, honestly am not over this guy….and it’s not like he was the best thing to ever happen to me, he ws a real jerk!!!!

Even I knew that

apparently we are in recession afterall…..

God save us from Ntate Phosa hle!

So the big boys ko sauer, are saying the treasury has not been playing nicely with the other kids, and are planning on correcting that? How? By setting up a commision of enquiry they said amongst other things which am to scared to even imagine

Some of the task of the enquiry will be to see to it that the treasury allocates enough funds towards poverty alleviation, education and fighting crime……but does’nt the ministry allocate enough as it??? to the left we go!

The only ministry that works,that is atleast doing what it is supposed to be done!!!! Why can’t they set up an enquiry at the home affairs? The health department, the education department??? Why a whole lot of kids are not doing pure maths but maths literacy…

I am afraid very afraid….

the leader we deserve

So we will finally have a leader who says nothing when a bunch of war veterans threaten a coup? Who would’nt drop charges under all that pressure and threat mmmh?

Now I really want to see how all this will play out. Most of my colleagues at my previous employ were saying just how they will be immigrating when the old man becomes pres. Now with the economic meltdown worldwide, and the job losses am really interested in how this will play out…

I immedietly checked the share prices when this was announced, and no changes yet, will see in an hour…

Am really disheartened about this. we truly are an african country….To the left we go..I guess..

and wtf with david bullard??? or did he suddenly realise which side his bread is buttered??? Or is another case of another good journo bites the dust?